I’m sick of waking up each morning reading my inbox each morning full of self help fluff. Morning after morning there’s something about “I quit my job’ or “How you can be the next IT girl?” and then getting the case of the guilts that I need to work harder, produce that next e-book and perhaps be more bold.
It’s like one big popularity contest and I’m not the cool kid. And you know what? Who cares! Sure it seems glamorous to be able to haul your ass down to the local café with your cute little laptop while sipping an almond mylk chai while penning your next ’10 Ways to feel spiritually connected’ post but what we don’t see is how hard these beautiful entrepreneurs who have gone before as have worked behind the scenes. We haven’t seen the struggle, the late night melt down or the client who hasn’t paid up. Again.
When you look at me on the other end of your screen what do you see? I see a girl who has been busting her guts to get this life coaching gig off the ground. I see a girl striving way too hard to make things happen rather than surrendering to the process. I sometimes see a girl who feels the need to compete rather than celebrate and a girl ready to throw in the towel because working my ass off for no return sucks big time!
Right now your cute little spiritual practice is starting to feel a little woo woo to you rather than you you. (See what I did there…)
You have a hunger in your soul. You want more.
But you don’t want to DO MORE.
Spirituality can sometimes be like a piñata. There’s so many different layers that make up the final piece.
Yours might take the form of yoga, praying or even the art of lunar abundance and becoming in tune with lady Lunar’s cycles.
And that’s super cool…
If that’s what you love to do.
Everyone wants a miracle don’t they? Whether it’s for yourself or someone else, we all crave an answer to prayer. After years of praying for a child we were blessed with our little miracle in Flynn Elliott. He’s 15 weeks old and he brings such delight to my husband and I. Having Flynn has deepened my faith in so many ways. I have so much love for Flynn and it made me realise how much more God must love his children. Sure, I knew this before. It’s something that we hear often. But having Flynn here and having that mumma connection has helped me to connect with God and has helped me to know how deep His love must be for us as his children.
Last Sunday I had the opportunity to listen to Marianne Williamson, who is an internationally acclaimed spiritual author and lecturer. Her work largely centres around “A Course in Miracles” which is ‘a unique, universal, self study spiritual thought system that teaches that the way to love and inner peace is through forgiveness.’
A Mother’s Lense
My heart has changed a lot since I’ve become a mother. I’ve started to see things a lot differently. Through a mother’s lense.
This week there were two instances where I used these new lenses. The first was while watching a programme about Ivan Milat, the infamous backpacker murderer here in Australia. As I looked at Flynn, my 6 week old, I wondered how must his mother have felt to find out her son had committed such atrocities? He would have started out just like Flynn. A baby.
As I snuggled Flynn close and my heart swelled with such love for this child I contemplated what makes children grow up and become murderers. Did his mother cuddle him close? Did she whisper ‘I love you’s‘ in the wee hours of the morning? Did he feel loved? The whole is it nature versus nurture?
I then watched the news a couple of days later to find out the two Australians Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran were executed on drugs charges. How must their mothers feel? Again, they started out just like my Flynn.
I say a prayer over Flynn in that moment. For his future, that he will meet friends who will influence him positively, that one day he’ll be a good husband, that he’ll treat people with love and respect. That Jesus will be the light of His life and that this light will shine brightly in a world full of evils.