Oh Baby Baby
So I totally had a baby! Flynn Elliott Braybrooke came two weeks early on the 20th March 2015 at 7:40 pm. After having severe back pain that kept me standing for 18 hours straight I thought it was time to go to the hospital and at least get it checked out. Turns out I was dilated 2 cms. In my birth plan, I wanted to return home if less than 4 cms but because it was quite severe we decided to stay and get some pain relief (Endone tablets) and wait before returning home. Through the whole process I hypnobirthed as best as I could. It took the edge off at times and kept me grounded.
But hey. I’m human. There were definitely tears during the worst part of my back spasming and a little before the caesarean. I ended up having to have a caesarean because Flynn’s heart rate was getting faster, he had fluid expanding around his head and he was stuck in the birth canal. At the end of the day we had to do what was best for Flynn and I. You don’t get a medal for having a natural birth.
I played the ‘Caesarean birth – calm and relaxed’ hypnobirthing track which helped but I have to admit I was a little disappointed initially that I had to go and have a caesarean. I really wanted to be the first in my family in a long time to be able to give birth naturally. Plus I knew that there were benefits to having Flynn naturally. Once Flynn came out and I saw his cone shaped head I knew we had made the right decision and I can tell you that I do not feel like a failure for having made this decision. (A few people have asked me this and I am totally at peace with it).